Going more slowly
I could write the whole post on the gifts of having to learn to go more slowly. A few highlights:
• Hearing my slippers slide across the floor and realizing I am shuffling instead of walking
• Misplacing my shoes, phone, eyeglasses, keys, and wallet much less often
• My printing on crossword puzzles is so much clearer and less sloppy
• Flossing my teeth more slowly, actually feeling the floss up and down each side of each tooth!
• More walking and less biking--noticing the incredible beauty and lushness of the trees and bushes while sitting on a bench looking over the waterfall at Ashuelot Park
• When we were visiting our 4-year old grandchild, I had to find more activities that didn't require being so physically active. One day I did "This little Piggy went to market…" on her toes. She giggled and then said "do it again…backwards"! The next day she was doing her wooden Olivia puzzle, saying each letter as she put it in its place. I said "now spell your name backwards." She looked puzzled for a moment and then laughed, remembering the day before. With glee she said "I can spell my name backwards with my eyes closed.” She then named each letter as she picked it up: "A I V I L O." I was able to feel her intelligence, creativity, and playfulness as we explored new ways of being together.
Savoring more moments
Thoroughly enjoying a good meal out with my wife. For one of the few times in 36 years of marriage, we finished our meals at about the same time!
Making the many morning bird songs the focus of several minutes of my meditation.
Stopping to deeply take in a beautiful blooming flower. Here is a photo of a pansy that looked like Yosemite Sam from Looney Tunes. I laughed the rest of the way home. To see it press HERE.
Seeing nature’s many beauties in the walk along the river with different friends:
• Reflections of the sky, clouds, and trees on the water
• Noticing that the algae on a small pond look like an Impressionist painting; for years I have seen the algae as ugly
• Seeing a trail through the algae that was made by a swimming animal, a duck perhaps?
• Hearing the song of a wood thrush
Seeing more clearly
I feel that learning to go more slowly (both my body and mind) has enabled me to see more clearly, something the Buddha called sampajanna: clear knowing, seeing the whole picture.
Yesterday our Monday night meditation group was discussing an article on tough compassion. One example given was speaking up when someone makes a very mean-spirited remark and at the same time having compassion for the ignorance or inner hurt in that person that preceded the comment. One of the members pointed out that what we are being invited and challenged to do is a simultaneous holding of opposites.
This is what I was writing about last week when I spoke about accepting all my thoughts related to the upcoming surgery, both the "positive" and the "negative" thoughts.
This has come up when I feel irritated because my wife is hovering over me ("that's too heavy for you," "that's too much salt"). When I open my heart, I can feel the energy of fear in her also. If something happened, I would be gone, but she would still be here without her best friend. When I can hold both hold the irritation and the love, I respond with compassion.
May we all continue to grow in these and other ways.